I'm The Fat Girl....

I'm tired of being the fat girl in my world.  I've battled my weight since middle school.  In 8th grade my parents and I joined Jenny Craig.  I lost weight...I couldn't tell you how much, but it was absolutely effective in shedding the pounds...just can't say it did me any good in the whole lifestyle change.  Once I graduated back to real food (as opposed to their pre-packaged meals), I slowly started packing the weight back on.

Fast forward to my senior year.  I had enormous boobs!!  I wanted a breast reduction the way my kids now want an i-pad.  In order for my insurance to cover the surgery, I had to lose some weight to prove that my "melons" were not the result of weight gain.  I lost 40 lbs...and not even an inch from my bra size.  Wish granted!!!

Then came love, marriage, baby carriage and divorce...and all the sudden I was 207 pound, single mom.  I was a wreck.  I went to the doctor.  He put me on anti-depressants and prescribed phentermine (also known as adipex).  The weight was melting off me...and I'd never been happier.  I got down to 150 and a size 8.  Not only did it curb my appetite, but it also gave me tons of energy.  I worked out 4-5 times a week.  Eventually I came off the meds and still continued to exercise, but my eating habits weren't great.

Then one thing led to another...I got really sick, I quit smoking, I fell down the stairs and broke my back.  And I've just never been able to find the motivation to get back into shape.  I honestly have no idea how much I weigh right now...but I'm willing to guess it's more than 207 (my heaviest post-pregnancy weight).

Last week, my 13 year old daughter went shopping in my closet...and found all of my cute skinny girl clothes and not only did they fit her...but she STOLE them!!!  That was the last straw!!  My oldest daughter is now the size I was at my smallest...and I want her to stay that size.  Plus her sister is on the verge of having a very volatile relationship with food.  It's time for me to change!!!

I've been thinking for a while now about how I can motivate myself.  I've been doing some online research on vitamins, diets, exercises, etc.  I've decided that if I share my story and my struggles and hopefully my successes here...I'll be more accountable to myself and my readers for my actions.  So here we go...